On the end of the before, and the beginning of the after.
Dispatch from the Future
Oct 2018 / Ian MacKenzie

Doula and my parter in the birthing tub

Dear <<Test First Name>>,

Last week, my son was born a day before the "official" due date.

In the final time leading up to the event, it felt like my partner and I were on a special kind of olympic training. Our doula lived in-house with us for two weeks. We reviewed the books and articles on birth. We prepared the right food. We cleaned and tidied the home. We practiced a variety of comfort giving measures.

And then suddenly (and yet entirely expected), the stirrings of labour began, and we were into the portal. There is much to be said about the next 37 hours, and perhaps much that will never be said.  But certainly, I feel now is not the time to fully understand "what happened."

Right now, mama and babe are doing well on this side of the rubicon.

Almost immediately after the birth, I stepped into the production shoot for Lost Nation Road. That these two things would weave precisely at the same time - a night about grief and death, and  the utter mystery and intensity of birth - is not lost on me.

I've heard saner cultures understand these two transitions as the most necessary of village-making endeavours, and the chance for our deep humanness to show up. Both are willing to abide by limitation, faithful to the wisdom of beginnings and endings.

As for me, the end of the before is over. The beginning of the after has begun.

- IM


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